I have just a little over an hour left of my super long
graveyard overnight shift, and I thought I could write something up for the blog. I mean, it’s a little overdue, and I kind of have quite a lot of things to write down, even though I might not be able to write / share all of them to you [yet].
So, it’s April 12th [almost April 13th back home in Malaysia], which means that I have a month left to graduation [my commencement is on May 13th]. Now that I think of it, seeing how graduation is just around the corner, it forces me to think about what I actually want to do in life, and what I want to do after graduation.
Picture by Shariff Sarip-Abinsa
Remember how last time, I talked about my interest in attending graduate school? Funny how I said it was going to be an ongoing blog series, but it ended up only being one blog post. I guess I owe it to people [if not to my blog, even though it’s heartless like me and wouldn’t care a bit if I don’t tell it everything] to let you know of some of the things that happened in the past couple of months since that original post.
In my last post, I included a link to a Google Form where I asked for suggestions on what I can write about between now and up until graduation (or even after graduation), and so here’s my first post for my pre-graduation series [and no, I’m not making it a full legit series of blog posts, because I will always forget and leave it halfway through].
“How much has your life changed in the last 4 years since the very first day you arrived in States ? =)”
This question is perhaps one of the biggest things people would ask anyone who spent all or part of their undergraduate years studying abroad, and one that someone should definitely spend time to look back and reflect on their life and how much they’ve changed and grown. I’ve been thinking a lot about this too for the past couple of days, considering how I will be speaking at the UW-Madison International Student Graduation Celebration in May (a week before my official graduation commencement), so I really need to take some time off to figure out my speech and everything.
[let’s just skip the “omg I’m so sorry I’ve been abandoning the blog” and stuff part, y’know I’m not entirely sorry for doing it and let’s face it, nobody cares anyway so why bother apologizing, eh?]
So I opened up Facebook Memories today [lol okay no it’s now yesterday hiks], and stumbled upon this gem from 4 years ago:
I still remember the day when this result came out. I was in INTEC, in my Calculus class, when I received the email from the Office of Admissions at UW-Madison [who knew I’d ended up working there during my college years?]. After logging in and seeing this, I was literally jumping out of my seat and hugging Syafiqa, who also got it [obviously, since she was my housemate here during our sophomore year], and ran outside [I feel sorry for our lecturer then] and met up with Fatihah from next door who also got in to Madison [but long story short she was sent to UIUC instead].
2016 will be ending soon, and with that, it means I have one semester left to graduate and get my bachelor’s degree. That means I’m this much closer to being a real adult, of officially being a ex-MARA student, of not doing whatever it takes to just finish my studies in a major that I no longer have the passion for.
And, of course, it also means that I’m so much more closer to actually having to figure out what I want to do with my life, which, at this point, I am clueless.