Everyone has a mask, or two, or three. No one is what they seem they are. All their Facebook statuses, all their tweets and Instagram updates, everything has been filtered so that they portray to the world what we want the world to see. Pictures have been edited so one will look prettier and flawless, and posts and updates have been carefully constructed so it seems like we’re having the time of our lives.
The truth is, no one is real. Everyone has a dark secret up their sleeves. Everyone has something to hide from the world. Be it a dark past that haunts you every single night of your life, or a current obsession that you try to hide from others. There is bound to be something about you that you would not want anyone else to know, because it will tarnish that good image of yours. It will ruin the perfect image of your life that you have so elegantly shaped through your social media sites.
And that is exactly what’s going on with me at the moment. Everyone has this view about me, but, oh God, what would I do if they ever found out what I’m trying so hard to hide? What would they say? What would they think?
I know I shouldn’t think about what others think of me. And I’m not that worried about that anyway, since I have always grown too tired of trying to please everyone.
I’m more worried about what He thinks of me.
I feel so bad, yet I know I was the one who chose this path in the first place. I allowed myself to dive into this, and now that I’m trapped inside, I don’t know how to get back out of this mess.
I just hope that He doesn’t give up on me. On us.